Schizophrenic Poems, Short Stories, and Thoughts

Disassociate me
rip apart my mind, in vein
tear away my thoughts from reality
I'm tired of feeling sane

Anger
Sadness
Hope
Trust
Rejection
Happiness

I beg you…take it all away
Bleed me an ocean dry
I have so many angry words to say

Death, it seems like an old friend
Some ecstatic familiar, waiting
An emotionless final end
A thought, patiently pulsating

I don even care about poetry anymore
I want TO FCKNG DIE

…

Sorry lost myself for a moment
In the darkness he sings in my ear
Sinister one, see my atonement, 
But your words are all I hear

Turmoil, my old friend, you return
A yearning, lost in reality, I acquit
I want to sink back to discern 
Where, in this world, do I fit